Nothing.

This post is nothing.
I am nothing.
I know nothing.

I have so many thoughts and also…nothing.

“Whatcha up to?”

Nothing.

Ok, now that that’s out of my system, let’s see if there’s actually anything floating around in my noggin to write down.

I DO know that I want to get back to blogging, I used to really enjoy it. I also know that I became so scared of being seen that I came up with this idea I was stoked about (Badass of Sass)….and then ran far away from it. So far. I might even still be going.

I still like the idea, and I still believe in it. I also know that it’s scary. Scary to put anything out in the world for other people to see. Scary to face criticism. Scary if I fail. Scary if I succeed! Things never used to seem so scary, and then one day everything was. This is me trying to make things – life – less scary again. This post? Terrifying. But I’m doing it anyway.

I heard John Green say something that hit me in my soul. He said, “I am very thin of skin at the moment.”
I cannot find where he said that or I’d link it. (Sorry John!)

But I feel that. I think all of us are a bit thin of skin right now. I would like to find confirmation that people are generally good. That the world is not COMPLETELY on fire. I will document my progress here as best I can, and if you want to stick around for it, I am humbled and very appreciative. I’d love to build a community of deeply feeling and sometimes awkward humans who are all just trying to be seen and not scolded. I know personally it seems like whenever I say something, someone has a contradiction or feels the need to tell me why I’m wrong. If it’s factual and I’m wrong, ok I will listen. I am very interested in learning and also very interested in not sharing bad information. If it’s my opinion or something I have found that brings me joy, then thanks but no thanks. I have no time or interest in hearing it. Negative Nancy’s and Contrary Sherry’s are not welcome, plzkthx.

I still don’t know exactly what will be here, I look forward to finding out. One thing I know for certain is anything I post is for my own catharsis, and with that I hope that it’s helpful for others too, certainly. First and foremost though, I know this will be a place for me to share my own experiences and resources. It’s going to be weird, and it’s going to be random, that’s for sure.

So I guess it’s not really “nothing” after all, is it?